no one

No one to talk to

Any shoulder?

Who can wipe away my invisible tears?

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The girl felt so stupid when she was treated like an option. She is not a girl who can gives what her boy wants, yet she still trying her best. They guy just doesn't care. It is just like putting a knife once again cut into the previous scar.

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S, if you leave I will cry and cry.

Would you still...

Knowing that someone is gonna leave you soon.

Basically is a heart filled with reluctantness.
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Friend said: How come every of yours will be leaving? It is the same as the previous one. Such a sad case.

What else can I say then?

It might be fate that always make jokes.
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I was wondering it might be a sense of attachment. Where is my deep love now? I still strongly believe that it is still rooted on Z but not S. S is physically but Z is down inside my soul.

What a complicated love I have. These rapidly decrease my chance of getting married.
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I like someone that doesn't love my back and someone else might interested on me while I am not. When will these be vice versa?

I am seriously hurt and I knew I am going to be hurt for the second time. That's more than enough.

She dont know

He holds her hand only inside the cinema and she was confused about their relationship. Both know they won't ended up together but still want to meet and get close. Perhaps, that is call unwilling to leave the comfort zone. Two of them are don't want to hurt either one although the ending is so clear.

The girl has lesser self-confident whenever they meet. It is because she felt that she can't please the guy. While he acts as a guru who teaches her how she should behave.

Back to the unit

Sadness is still there.

How can a both who once sleep together intimately had no love towards each other anymore? It's rather impossible. I want to help but I can't. I know they still care for each other just because they are not willing to let go their ego and compromise with one another.
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Maybe I should let go or I should appreciate what I had now before it goes away. I am gonna miss it so much (apply to people or thing). Seriously, knowing the bad ending that gonna happen is uncomfortable feeling.
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Kind of feeling empty when the house is so quiet even the new housemate is here. However, I didn't see him before and he locked inside the room. Please don't come out now because I am not ready to meet him. lol. I am not sure to give him a smile only or to open my mouth and say hi. AWKWARD!
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Little AnAn is growing up. He can remembers me now even I have a sem break. Because usually he will forgot me when I came back here again. When we had established a good relationship then I need go back gain. So that's the cycle. He shared with me his biscuits even without me asking. I love him so much and he is such a cute boy.
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Let's smile because nothing can destroy your happiness (:

*Apologize for not update recently.

I back home 140904

It is the fourth day I at home.

Planing many things and it would be an excited year for me. We are going to somewhere with airplane. Wohoo!

But kind of boring. No money so stay at house most of the time.

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Both of them still have contact with each other. More and more understanding. Wishing that love would sprout and grow like plant.