I thought I was right, but not.

At this moment, this very second, I felt that I am wrong. I am so guilty. I am sorry Mr E. I really hope that you don't put hope on me as it is really not worth it.
I am sorry of what I have done.
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I am seriously don't know what kind of life am I living now. It is a mess. I couldn't go back and I have zero motivation to move on. Seriously, Deer is busy and I don't wanna trouble him. Yea, I need to understand that we are from two different world and it needs lots of effort to try to fit the other in our life. It is real hard. I hope we can go through this and I have little faith. Unless we have strong love that keeps connecting our hearts. Sacrifices are to be made in order to have a closer step in the heart.

He is good to me.
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At certain point of life, when your think you are strong and right but actually you are totally weak and wrong.

Progressing...

This is the first time holding hands in the mall. Teasing one another is always.
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People might think I am so blissful now and yes, I admit I am. It is wonderful when people treat you so well. But, do remember to treat people well even they don't deserve it. For doing good deeds must come with a pure and sincere heart.
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Life is a mess now.

Maybe It Would Be Different

Maybe at certain point of life we might not need each other anymore. Our memories would be blurred and all will be the past. What can we do? as not many things can go to the level of everlasting. Kinship, friendship, love and life. People would just easily give up and those who gain victory are those who endure and fight until the end. I admit that I have lose my fighting's spirit but I know I will need to regain my strength and fight for something, which is worth. As people always say, life is not easy but doesn't mean you can't enjoy it. Every stage of life will has lessons on in, you need to figure it out and learn from it. It is kind of self-improvement also. To be better than yesterday.

By the time when you get married my heart would broke but I will stick it together and be glad for you had found your love.

Just enjoy the present

It is been a while..

Hong Kong trip was just nice. I ate lots of homemade food from aunt-in-law. 2kg weight gained for 7 days.

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He still text her every day and delaying his departure date.

"Life is shit"
"I miss you"
"What to do"
"We have to accept it"

Somehow it is true that life doesn't goes the way that you want but the opposite because we can't control everything. Human is just so limited with power of controlling fate.

The next phase might not be good but a least he and she able to enjoy their lovely life together.

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Tomorrow need to back to study already. Rest for one week.

Pearl

He was pampering her that much. Prepared snacks and foods for her.
She would remember how they were so hot, sweating here and there when the fan seems to be spoiled and they fixed it together.
They walk for miles to the mall to get cheaper ingredients for dinner and took a taxi back which cost so much. The night they shared their laughter and one small blanket.

Cooking together was so fun and nice. Nice pork mince but too salty. Ha-Ha. Her fault.
Food was served and dishes were washed by him.

Hugged tight and said "I will miss you!"
"For how long? One second?"
*Laughter*

She cried all night because she knew it was the last night.

"We will never meet each other again!"
"Who knows?"
"It might be a lifetime"

He gave her the pearl that his mother gave him few years back so that she would remember him whenever she sees the pearl.

"IF you at 30 years old still haven't married then I marry you"
Doesn't know it is a joke or what.

"Don't go la"

Heavy heart

It was a great night!

They both so close to each other. Now their heart are closer to each other but physically they need to depart from each other.

He treated her like a queen. She is so blissful! That moment of blissfulness would forever craved in her mind.

He text her and said he miss her. Never ever a guy said that to her. AWww!
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I am so weak, not physically.

I feel strengthless and useless and restless.

Bro said I am lame? Come on, I am serious.

Fate

"Only if I stay a little longer, I will fall for you."
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The love that the girl forever unable to grab hold of it.
The love that always leave her painfully.

The fate that wrong person always comes;
And right person always goes.

She can touches it but she can't have it.

Love suppose to be giving people good and positive effects but it does not apply to her.
It hurts her more and more every time she choose to believe it again.
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When shall I break the curse then?

Be stronger than yesterday.

It came on the wrong season again

Every guy is so different. But why those who is suit needs to leaves?
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He promised the girl many things and the girl started to feel the love he had for him. In between there's so misunderstanding and I think they both had explained it all. That is why communication is so important. They both did had quarrel all the time whenever they are about to have a meet up.

Tonight, the girl just feel so bliss NOT because of he had sex with her. Well, sex do allow both people to feel connected but that only applies to husband and wife. Do not simply do it.
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Emotional down.

I feel moody and doesn't want to join anything at all. I have really disappointed with them. They just ignored me and I am like invisible.