Would you be at the losing end for someone you love? When I say someone you love doesn't only apply to couples. It might be friends and families.
Doesn't it worth by letting someone you care to win and all you want is to let them be happy? At times, I find it so hard to be at losing end. It might die to I don't want to lose my face or I don't want to get hurt. It's not easy when you know you are right but you don't want to make the situation worse or harm the relationship. Need to measure which is more important, to win an argument or to win a relationship.
How about you? Would you still stand for your rights?
I always tell myself that one day that person would know. You just have to make sure you don't harm the relationship and try to be a peacemaker no matter what situations. God knows.
I'm still learning to be better because I'm always the troublemaker. Every time I make the situation worse because I don't want to be at losing end. Hard right? Life lesson. Personally I don't like to see people get into argument but actually I keep doing it again and again. It's not worth. Silent is gold. You listen more than you speak as speech might be as sharp as knife that hurt others innerly.
Okay.
Thanks for reading.
fannen.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Monday, July 25, 2016
Do you care?
I remember when I was very young, I lack of care and somehow God send people whom I met to give me extra care to fill in the empty gap for 'care'. Looking at the positive side, I am really grateful because those that care really care from their bottom hearts. I remember when I am about secondary school I told my mom that she does not care for me and she asked me how she can show her cares and I was silent. Then her tears drop, I regretted it because I never care for her feelings at that time. I urge for others care but I myself did not care. Later on, my relationship with my mom got better and better. I know how come people do not show concern to me because I did not need people to worry and I play safe. People think I am a good girl and neglected me.
I never knew that at the age of 22 (days before I turn 23), someone told me that he sees the need to take care of me. It really brings comfort to me. Yea, another best friend of mine. Is like no matter how, at least there is one who cares. I know I don't deserve, but I can't help. Sometimes I wanted some care but I am too shy to show it out and I really don't want to bother anyone. Not my parents don't take care of me, is I make them feel I am good and safe. I don't want to make them worry.
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Gosh, I dreamed of another guy again. What happened to me?
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Today at least I accomplished something. Thank God! But, I still stuck somewhere ha-ha. Tomorrow only continue.
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One more things, durian seasons seems like going to end very soon but I haven't got to taste any yet. Craving for it. Yea, once a year most of the Malaysian will crazy for durian.
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Advice for fannen;
Rich or poor, be humble and remember always those who helped you before. Be thankful in all circumstances. Help as many people as you can.
fannen.
I never knew that at the age of 22 (days before I turn 23), someone told me that he sees the need to take care of me. It really brings comfort to me. Yea, another best friend of mine. Is like no matter how, at least there is one who cares. I know I don't deserve, but I can't help. Sometimes I wanted some care but I am too shy to show it out and I really don't want to bother anyone. Not my parents don't take care of me, is I make them feel I am good and safe. I don't want to make them worry.
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Gosh, I dreamed of another guy again. What happened to me?
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Today at least I accomplished something. Thank God! But, I still stuck somewhere ha-ha. Tomorrow only continue.
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One more things, durian seasons seems like going to end very soon but I haven't got to taste any yet. Craving for it. Yea, once a year most of the Malaysian will crazy for durian.
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Advice for fannen;
Rich or poor, be humble and remember always those who helped you before. Be thankful in all circumstances. Help as many people as you can.
fannen.
Sunday, July 24, 2016
Night Dream
I remember it's been a month where I do not have a proper sleep. I could hardly fall asleep. Every night is a real struggle for me. When I cannot fall asleep then my mind would be wondering on negative matters, is like inevitable. Then I tears will fall agaain. Gah!
But, what I want to share today is yesterday night was different. Thank God that I managed to fall asleep easily and did not wake up until the alarm rang. So happy even still not that enough but I couldn't ask for more. Be contented.
I woke up only I realized that I had a sweet dream. I meet with my old close friend that we did not talk for few years already due to some misunderstanding. I sitting inside the car backseat and that close friend was sitting outside somewhere. So, when the car make a turn our eyes met and we smile at each other. That was really making me feel better. Thanks. All these while even when we met somewhere, I dare not look at him. Yea, is a guy. I just don't want him to feel bad so I always avoid him but still wish that we can be close friend again one day. Sometimes, it is really hard to resolve those misunderstandings. That is why I did not want to do anything anymore. I make a big mistake a lose very close friend of mine.
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How come to be sincere and truthful is so hard?
At times, it is hard to be your true self, even just to have a sad face. At certain time when you really don't feel like smiling but you still need to so that people won't ask so many irrelevant questions or over worry about you. Did you face the same situation? Trying to be more sincere and that I can have a more lively life.
fannen.
But, what I want to share today is yesterday night was different. Thank God that I managed to fall asleep easily and did not wake up until the alarm rang. So happy even still not that enough but I couldn't ask for more. Be contented.
I woke up only I realized that I had a sweet dream. I meet with my old close friend that we did not talk for few years already due to some misunderstanding. I sitting inside the car backseat and that close friend was sitting outside somewhere. So, when the car make a turn our eyes met and we smile at each other. That was really making me feel better. Thanks. All these while even when we met somewhere, I dare not look at him. Yea, is a guy. I just don't want him to feel bad so I always avoid him but still wish that we can be close friend again one day. Sometimes, it is really hard to resolve those misunderstandings. That is why I did not want to do anything anymore. I make a big mistake a lose very close friend of mine.
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How come to be sincere and truthful is so hard?
At times, it is hard to be your true self, even just to have a sad face. At certain time when you really don't feel like smiling but you still need to so that people won't ask so many irrelevant questions or over worry about you. Did you face the same situation? Trying to be more sincere and that I can have a more lively life.
fannen.
Thursday, July 14, 2016
Be thankful!
I am really thankful to God for giving me such a good life! I hope that I would not blame God if there's anything bad or unsmooth things happened.
So far so good for my job (currently in 3rd week). Everyday watch YouTube (it is watching the tutorial actually) haha. Even though I am progressing slowly but my boss still gives me lots of encouragements which I am grateful for. Thanks! My colleagues also the same good. There are good bros, fun and willing to teach. And I think I cannot be that lazy and happy-go-lucky anymore. I should put extra efforts. So that I would not let them down.
At this moment, I started to miss my family 😠For a long time we never really had a good meal together. There's always someone missed the gathering. It's gonna be hard now. And I really sorry to my parents especially they came all the way to meet me and I only manage to eat one meal with them. They are like so good!
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2 days without a single text. It's okay.
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Slowly I started to love my simple and easy life. Don't like complicated and I love this slow pace in life. Although the sometimes church does has continuous activities but so far I still can cope with it. It's like just nice. If you ever have a speed up life, why not try to slow it down and have a look at the surroundings. Tomorrow would be a brand new day for me as I enter 23. I really want a simple life and I hope I would not get complicated just as the past. I want to be genuine to everyone I meet and laugh out loud. Seeing myself slightly open to people more, I really feel great because that's a breakthrough for me. Yes I am afraid of new circumstance, but I'm kinda excited for it because I know I have to try and be adventurous.
Without God. I'm nothing.
So far so good for my job (currently in 3rd week). Everyday watch YouTube (it is watching the tutorial actually) haha. Even though I am progressing slowly but my boss still gives me lots of encouragements which I am grateful for. Thanks! My colleagues also the same good. There are good bros, fun and willing to teach. And I think I cannot be that lazy and happy-go-lucky anymore. I should put extra efforts. So that I would not let them down.
At this moment, I started to miss my family 😠For a long time we never really had a good meal together. There's always someone missed the gathering. It's gonna be hard now. And I really sorry to my parents especially they came all the way to meet me and I only manage to eat one meal with them. They are like so good!
--
2 days without a single text. It's okay.
--
Slowly I started to love my simple and easy life. Don't like complicated and I love this slow pace in life. Although the sometimes church does has continuous activities but so far I still can cope with it. It's like just nice. If you ever have a speed up life, why not try to slow it down and have a look at the surroundings. Tomorrow would be a brand new day for me as I enter 23. I really want a simple life and I hope I would not get complicated just as the past. I want to be genuine to everyone I meet and laugh out loud. Seeing myself slightly open to people more, I really feel great because that's a breakthrough for me. Yes I am afraid of new circumstance, but I'm kinda excited for it because I know I have to try and be adventurous.
Without God. I'm nothing.
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