All i need is money

Last week, after knowing my semester fee is that much i really stunt. I didn't know what should i say or do. Where can i get that amount of money in less than two weeks time? Without hesitate, i took the withdrawal letter. I think and think and think. Parents do can give me that amount of money for my whole course but.. I really don't want used up all their money just for my education. It's cruel. A great decision in my life. I never feel so poor before. Thank God that everything is still fine. "God will make a way, where there seems to be no way" this song really encourage me (:

I really will miss them (church) if i left. Even though i don't like coming back to KL. Despite the tiredness i had, this is the place i can serve God more, or to say I can have the chance. I enjoy doing it!

Someone had just committed suicide by jumping from 18th floor and died on the scene. He was staying another block of my unit. I heard that he was the top scholar of my university college. The reason still yet to reveal. Life is just so fragile. Youngster not really want to seek help but to use their own method.

What's the feeling when you trying to help someone yet, the rejected?

In an apps, I get to know a few new peoples around the worlds. Many people bringing a purpose in that apps. Some want sex, some find bf or gf. Some wish to express their real feeling whlie some just wanted to find someone to talk to. But I do loves this apps so much because your status will remain as anonymous unless you want to reveal your real identity. A few post are real sad, some interesting and funny. You can get to know how's is the life of others and makes me feel that i am so blessed. Besides, we can comment on the post. Criticism, Encouragement, Appraisal are there. Like i always said, everyone is so unique and they have a story behind it.

What you pondering?

What's on your mind now? I just heard the sound of the fork and spoon knock the plate from the balcony. It's the old couple having their meal beside my unit. How warm and sweet they are. I wish my house have more that kind of sounds. Having a meal together is so warming and important to me. Plates are plenty yet non was used. Does your house have that sound when having meal? Or everyone is looking down at their phone without communication? Besides, i do heard sound of television. Hope to watch tv with the old couple even though i have yet to greet them before. Someday! My mind couldn't catch up what's happening now. I have no idea. Wish to end everything but i can't! Life is full of temptations. I afraid one day i might sin against God.

New unit

A great morning with no disturbances. Friends always around me makes me never feel lonely yet i have less personal time. Temptations are many. The only things i like this place is just because the scenery is pretty much awesome.

It's the fifth day but third night i was overnight at my new unit with my classmates and some acquaintances.

I really adapting with live with my friends. Trying so hard to join them whenever they go but hold in my purse seems bigger. I fear! Good please gives me strength to overcome all these things.

Welcoming my bachelor degree life with lots of worrdes and make me wanna cry again. Crying doesn't solve the issue right?
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In this earth, there are still people who live with his father but doesn't know Tue exact spelling of his father's name. What shall i comment on this? I seriously can't accept and wonder how is the relationship with the father.
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Can you accept homosexual? Asian country has been more and more common yet i believe majority still have a very tradition and preservative thinking. How about you? I do have friends are homosexual but i don't mind making friends with them. They're still human right? Every things happened for a reason. Believe me, everyone has their own story behind it! (: Things that is against the nature i am not agree but who am I to judge? Leave it to God!
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Yesterday i lied. I seriously feel so guilty!! I don't used to lie.. I feel it is a habit.

Who is the one..

I believe most of the people have headphones. Do you ever have that special peoples when you chat or message with them you would feel extremely bliss? Everything happened, you wish them to know. You can't wait for them to reply. Looking at the phone for almost every second is what you do. Who would that person be in your life? Boyfriend, bestfriend or father?

In my life, i have very special one that i will stay up late just because to message with. Sorry to my health and parents because is not them. Excitement reach the maximum after knowing we can call each other. Then, i realized it's only one way feeling. I know already but i still hold it on. That's the reason i got hurt until i don't have feel of pain. Maybe slowly i would feel it.

Afterall, i do enjoy life without that person. I go out with many other people, enjoy that every short moment of life.

I know i still cheating on myself because every moment I still thinking of you. That's my failure.

Don't let too much of your feeling into a relationship that you yet to confirm. You would lost a lot. This risk are not worth to take. Don't be silly especially girl. For sure you won't forget!

I will never sacrifice my sleep for this anymore!

O, you little fear!

It's a happy but i cried for money. Seriously i never thought of the importance of money in my life. If no money problem then life would be much more easier. I really wish to quit everything in KL. I got to take another option to have a better life.

Worry has distracted my life. I can't live a happy life that fulfil my one and only resolution of 2014, which is to happy and not to cry. I really worry.

After 10 years, i will not worry for money!

God, please show me the way that you want me to walk on. Grant me strength so that i can overcome everything!

What age is for you?

Age is just a number.

If there's a gap between age, would you find it hard to communicate? I mean there might be different in thinking, lifestyle as well as level of maturity. However, there must be certain percent of peoples who can join in the topic of conversation with the younger or older one. Some people are advance at age yet, they are as seems a kid. Whereas, some can be very mature in thinking though they're just that young. By the way, i like someone who is older than me in the sense of thought. The way they look at things are so much different and sometimes awaken me. They're my eye-opener for this world. At times, others can see what your can't see.

People often says an older husband and a younger wife are almost perfect. I mean a pure relationship, not those who married yet find another young woman. The husband would be very 'sayang' the wife. Of course the wife cannot be too childish la. Every relationship there must be problems, is both want to dissolve together or not. No stereotype, a bigger wife and younger husband does makes some differences. In this, husband must be not so concern about man's authority, like everything must listen to him and he is the most in authority. Please la, woman still can live without you. Not flexible at all. That one is not my cup of tea. Should ask wife for opinion in respect to her. True, some wife really can tolerate and compromise with husband just because of love that never fades.
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It's another story. What if one day your mother had left (passed away, divorce and so forth), your father remarried your ex-classmates. Can you accept it? Why yes, why not?
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Your junior does better than you. When you go for job interview, he is the interviewer. How do you feel and what's your response? Actually, it doesn't matter who is above you as long as you do the best. If you don't want someone better than you, then prove to them.

Asian, had been bounded by the traditions, not sure about western. Someone who is older than you must sit in a higher position. Why? I don't deny we need to respect to them but they also need to humble right? They're older doesn't mean they might be right. Just like some parents, always scolding the children yet they can't see themselves. Always remember that no one is perfect, human will still makes mistake.

It's just the way you think... I might be wrong, do correct me! (:

Make Believe

I don't want after ten years my life would be so robotic. Working, working, working. I want 365 is my offday! I want travel everywhere. I will not let my life down. I want it to be beautiful and meaningful.

Let's make a difference from now on (:

Amway, my way.

Readers, don't mind joining me? Pm me (: