Alright?

Hey, how was your day? It is a good day or a bad day? neither happy nor sad?
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Mine supposed to be good day as I met up with my granny. I miss her so much and we hadn't contact each other since last year. Then, my day was liken to the thunderstorm where I dislike. Tears almost flow out of my eyes but I controlled it. Out of sudden my mood was so down and the day was so blue.

All kinds of thought rushed into my mind as before. Then I realized, living in reality, in the presence is so cruel. I still couldn't accept it. Living in presence doesn't means is bad, yet depends on the situations. For me this year, better for me to stay back to my dream and past.

I'm a person who cannot and not able to face the real truth of things that had happened. Believe me, it was scary like nightmare. Somehow, a murderer of my happiness and blissfulness.
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Didn't managed to text with him since 6pm. It nust be his place don't have internet signal. Hope everything was good for him.

The 8th day

It has been a week where he left Malaysia. Hopefully Malaysia worth for him to miss. A never promise future of meeting each other again would be liken to a bomb in the heart. It would explode any time whenever it is not taken care properly. How can I not miss someone that care for me more than the normal people would do?
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Attachment.

I have read many articles and heard of saying some girl get too attached to guy and the guy would feel annoy. Admitted, I did been too attached and he said it is okay. Maybe he doesn't wants to hurt me or he meant it.
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I was getting more and more lazy. Hopefully I can survive on MUET exam.

fannen, overcome your weaknesses.

5th day

Well, I did cried yesterday night. In addition, I had a serious cold at midnight and keep coughing so, didn't managed to help parents today. Resting in the house. I hope it was not so called "lovesick" lol.
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Yea, other than to be strong, there's no other way. Cry doesn't help but makes me feel better. Let's keep looking forward for the day when we meet again.
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Realized that my semester break would be super short. Aww.. :'( dislike, need to go back the space and there's an English test waiting for me. Well, I'm not prepared.
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Would you fall in love into someone else when you're in a relationship? How come?

LDR

It is the 4th day, I miss him so much. I cried every night since the first day he went back. He asked me to be strong for our love. Yea, previously I thought I was strong but actually I'm weak and fragile. We still have long way to go. I didn't hope for much as I don't want to be disappointed and hurt. All kinds of ending I will accept and learn from it.
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Have you ever met with the situation where the right person came on the wrong time while wrong person came on the right time?

Sometimes, there are opportunities but the timing seems to be so wrong. Anyway, we need to be confident in what we choose and never look back or regret. Do for the best and learn even if it was a wrong choice.
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I never miss a person so much. It is kind of emotional unstable. Was it a normal state? Or I'm exaggerated?

Done exam

All I can say is to thank God for the last paper. Even though I doesn't know which test to use for every questions.. I just go according with my heart. It might be wrong but at least I wouldn't be that worry. Now I'm waiting for Sunday to come.

These few days there are strong wind I can feel especially I'm living in up above 17th floor.

Yesterday night I keep hearing the wind sounds and worry for today's paper. Finally, nightmare had ended.

My first camera in life had arrived today that i had waited since Monday. It's not bad and I can't wait to use it anywhere. Yay!

Planning to watch drama online yet internet line was so down most probably someone loading a stacks of movie again. Can we share the internet? Download one by one instead of all together. Other people still need to use lo.

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He was indeed so sweet to her these few days. Blissfulness overload! Love you, by her.

What a bad day

Can't feel anything positive about the afternoon paper just now. It is like your heart has stop for a few seconds or even a minute after look at the questions. It has been long time I never felt like this before. Let's hope for the very best on tomorrow self-study. It was about statistic, counting here and there.
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Let's sleep early.
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In a relationship you need to confront but somehow it is risky if the relationship is not stable. After confronting, both of the getting along in a better way. More of little sweetness and love. Less quarrel and less conflict. If you're not a kind a stable and you don't wish to let go, you better not. It is good if you tell each other the truth so that people can improve for better. But in a proper and nice way, not too straight forward especially for girl. They will remember it forever.
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Goodnight!

He changed.

Left two more papers to go. Oh my gosh, i'm kinda excited for the second right after Wed, 11am.

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He was so sweet today. It is seldom for him to said he miss her and excited for the day they are able to hang out together. He gave her a text-kiss whenever she asked for it. Huuray!

"Let's not quarrel anymore!"
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I am excited for my gopro too. For the first time i ordered something online. And for the first time I bought myself a proper camera. Gonna use it for coming sem break trip. I hope it doesn't disappoint me.

Actually I do not know what would happen for tomorrow paper as we do not know what we shall read for. Maybe I should be positive don't be sad and I will realize more good things (:

fannen

A stressful life.

I still think coming back here would allow me to feel better.

I had such a stressful and mess life here. 2014 would be fantastic but a great stressful year. I found someone that should suppose to support me ended up I support that person.

Rain fall. And my tears fall.

I feel so down that I can't lift up my head and stop the tears from falling down.

Study for hours but remember nothing. Texted with mom and I doesn't want her to worry about me. She asked how's my exam and so forth as usual those mother's questions'.

I pray everyone would have a smooth exam tomorrow. Hope you readers would able to cope with everything in life. There will be a way out (:

I love you, my love.

fannen

Feeling empty

Although she is in a relationship but at times she feel alone. Maybe she doesn't feel the connection when she can't reach to him (be with him, get his reply).

Somehow, she got a words from stranger that "Boyfriend is just PART of your life, not ALL."

After all, she still feels unless you really found a right one, you don't get into a relationship. It would makes you crazy when there's misunderstanding and you would care so much because the other people is so much important to you. That's worse when the other side doesn't show care or love in return.

She doesn't prevent people from being in a relationship. Why not? It is not easy to find the other half especially in this society.

All the best to all couples on earth (:

Remember that relationship depends on effort from both parties. If you foresee the issue, solve it or let go. Don't keep holding on something that you know it is not yours. It is okay to be hurt but not all or same the time. An advice; don't forget your true self, be real ((:

New Year Routine

It is always I need to welcome my new year with final exam. This is the third year. I done one of the paper without nervous. That's kind of strange but still a good one.
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He is find now but I feel his gf doesn't happy at all. Playing fool too much might not be the right things at times. Sometime people said, after getting too close you need to move farer from each other sometimes. Getting too close most of the time might has side effect. Maybe his gf is trying hard but the bf doesn't seems to notice about it.

Im sorry

I apologize. I should have meet you once I came back but I didn't. I'm not able to be by your side when you need someone. I love you deer. Don't ever leave me alone. I need you so much that I myself can't imagine.

I know text would be hard but I'm trying hard to make sure you are okay and fine physically and mentally. Don't wish you do something that is not worth.

I have to study but in meanwhile I cry and cry because you are pushing me away. Maybe you are right,  you need time to cool down and I should give you some space. It is time to loosen up the robe.

Only prayers can help you, miss you.