Truly, the awful feeling is so bad when you missing someone else on the other side of the earth. Who do you miss? Must be someone, which is meaningful to you and you love. I really miss him so much to the extent where my eyes were never dry up. That's beyond my expectation. Never ever miss someone that much. All I can do is to close my eyes, hug tight my pillow and imagine the person I miss. I know it would makes me more miss as my tears would flow endlessly every time I did that. However, people says cry would somehow helps. I'm not sure but that's my natural reaction that I didnt intent to cry that much. Really a lot as my empty space would get flooded soon if I didn't manage to handle it as fast as possible.
I think he is celebrating his birthday today with his families. How sweet it is as I never ever has a birthday party ever or to say I always have a lonely birthday. Hence, I hide my birth date as nobody cares. It's okay (: This year, I'm gonna celebrate alone although I had missed out the opportunity to celebrate with my love and the get a gift from him.
Whenever I'm free, I'll go to the place where we once went and to retrieve the memories of ours for my own survival. It is more empty in the space.
I shall not hope for anything but to accept what had happened and matters that are coming soon. Let the strong winds blow away my bad mood and bring relaxation and happy feeling.
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