Saturday, March 7, 2015

Broken Innerly

These few days I was so fed up and I can't control my emotions. It was so down and I hope someone could drag my up. Yea, he doesn't care but others seems to be more concern of me.
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Love bought me a cute little bear in his own country that cost him much, I guess. It was wearing a cute red dress. I should be happy because that might be considered the first gift he bought for me without me knowing.

He is good but sometimes I don't understand what it is so hard to tell me what he is doing at that moment. I have been spending most of the time waiting for him to text me or call me. But, ended up he either her has something on going or the net was slow at both side. If it is success, I would be less sleeping hours. I shouldn't throw tantrum on him. Yesterday, I let all my schedule off just to make sure I have a proper time or at least half day to be with him online. However, I ended up looking at the phone playing games, watched videos and sleeps. At last, all I got was a text with just sorry for no reply. I planned to have sweet talk but... I wonder it is a way of testing how strong I can be for him?
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I am so homesick, at least my family won't hurt me in that way. They might disappoint me, but they love me most.
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I dislike my degree life and no one seems to be able to stand on my shoes. Never mind, God is watching and He will strengthen me. He will always be there for me.

I apologized that for long time I didn't update y blog and yea, today is International Women's Day (:

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