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I think I am someone who are easily distracted. I did not do well in many things especially someone special came into my life.
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Went to a LRT station few days ago, and there was an middle-age lady asked for RM2 from my friend as she has not enough money to go back. I did give my RM1 and another by friend. We still asked was it enough and she said yes. Although many of us did doubt whether she was lying or not. RM2 is little but what if she really lie?

Helping someone is out of a genuine heart. If there's doubt then better don't do as it will be pointless. Maybe just help with a naive attitude would makes you happier. If not you will bring trouble or worry to yourself after helping people. What if people lie? That's is beyond our boundary. Don't care.
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I can't believe tomorrow there is a quiz. Totally forgotten it.
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S is gonna leave for real. I would miss him and feel lost. I can feel how much he cares and loves me more than before that is how success he is.

How are you?

It is almost the end of 2015. Time just passed so fast.

S and I had entered the 2nd month of our relationship. Yes, we did have much sacrifices for each other especially time and effort. We're not living that near, so basically we meet once a week if everything went smoothly. He haven't set a date for his flight and I know it would be in a couple of weeks. We do quarrel over small matter because i'm the unreasonable and emotional unstable one. As always he treats me like so good and of course he has quite a high standard for me that I need to climb for it.

Well, dad and mom have a great holidays this year. They went to places they never been and next trip would be Taiwan. Anyway, I would be meeting them later and they drop by to visit me. That is the morning surprise for today. I miss them so much and my brother. Living alone here is kind of cruel but luckily I found him.

My finals would be end of this month. Last week was really a bad week. Each day I have presentations or midterms exam. Somehow, I thought of give up but still, I need to continue until the end.

My government loan was approved and I can live a better life now. And I would be in more debts. What to do, not everyone born in a rich family.

Half more month

Looking into the calender, the time for departure is getting closer. I couldn't imagine the days without him physically by my side. I have seen videos in YouTube concerning LDR. I really believe we can go through thick and thin. Distances is nothing when hearts are close.
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Life is actually not that mess up. It is my wrong perceptions and I am gonna be more happy. Because a happy smile will gives many positives effects to myself as well as people around me. Hope you readers find a reason to smile too (:

Official

No one knows when did the couple starts their relationship as it is always not official. But, yes, now they both are officially together. No anniversary can be celebrate as no exact date. Never mind, to be together is not about how many anniversary you remember or celebrate. It is about how you both improve to be better for each other and loving each other more.
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Although, I am not ready to have another half.. sometimes when fates are arrange in that way, I have to accept.
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Counting down their days of departure from one another and trials of their relationship.

I thought I was right, but not.

At this moment, this very second, I felt that I am wrong. I am so guilty. I am sorry Mr E. I really hope that you don't put hope on me as it is really not worth it.
I am sorry of what I have done.
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I am seriously don't know what kind of life am I living now. It is a mess. I couldn't go back and I have zero motivation to move on. Seriously, Deer is busy and I don't wanna trouble him. Yea, I need to understand that we are from two different world and it needs lots of effort to try to fit the other in our life. It is real hard. I hope we can go through this and I have little faith. Unless we have strong love that keeps connecting our hearts. Sacrifices are to be made in order to have a closer step in the heart.

He is good to me.
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At certain point of life, when your think you are strong and right but actually you are totally weak and wrong.

Progressing...

This is the first time holding hands in the mall. Teasing one another is always.
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People might think I am so blissful now and yes, I admit I am. It is wonderful when people treat you so well. But, do remember to treat people well even they don't deserve it. For doing good deeds must come with a pure and sincere heart.
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Life is a mess now.

Maybe It Would Be Different

Maybe at certain point of life we might not need each other anymore. Our memories would be blurred and all will be the past. What can we do? as not many things can go to the level of everlasting. Kinship, friendship, love and life. People would just easily give up and those who gain victory are those who endure and fight until the end. I admit that I have lose my fighting's spirit but I know I will need to regain my strength and fight for something, which is worth. As people always say, life is not easy but doesn't mean you can't enjoy it. Every stage of life will has lessons on in, you need to figure it out and learn from it. It is kind of self-improvement also. To be better than yesterday.

By the time when you get married my heart would broke but I will stick it together and be glad for you had found your love.