SOB

Early morning felt so refresh and get ready to class as a new day and new month has began.

Somehow, it is not a good start because i got one of my coursework marks back. It's kind of disappointed. Yea, disappointed to myself. I am such an unless and lazy girl. It is just passed. Argh, repeat the same mistake again and again. That's call dumb and stupid or fool.

Everything had just screwed up.

Okay, no matter how worse the situation is, i must go through it.

Let bygone be bygones.
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I enjoy night talk with you although sometimes or all the times we don't really know what to say or ask. It's good when someone willing to spend their time on you as time is consider important to everyone.

Let's see how long it's gonna take for this time.
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My life has lack of a main character that gonna makes everything so different and worthwhile. One day, I will found.

Enjoy your day! (:

I dont know what to ask

When the conversations goes longer and more, I don't know what to ask or say. Every time when we talk through internet is approximate two hours. I like to listen to him but not to talk, however, he wants me to ask and talk more. I am not sure what he is interested at, so I didn't reveal many pieces of my life. One piece had just been shared.

I don't think he feels i am pretty and so forth.
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Does best friend stays forever?
All these while I have many good friends but none can be my best-friend because I close myself and seems like no one can enter it. A mask is always on my face that none even realize it. My good friends also came and went. I won't stick to a person for long as none of them are supper glue. I didn't see it as bad as you will have lots of good friends everywhere. My best-friend must be my future husband. I would love to share everything with him and he must be one who doesn't judge me.
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Saudade.

Break the rules

There is this man who out of sudden I told him my past. He doesn't agree with what I am believing and holding right now just because it is different from others. And of course he didn't judge, he just share his opinion and experience to me. I know what i am believe and I choose to follow. Truly believe that the teachings is good for me. My principles would not change when I think there is no necessity to change.

Talking to you and skype with you it is consider as breaking the rules. I shouldn't have told you so much and spend so much time on you.

He said I think to much and too far was just exactly what Z told me. I am not thinking too much but to think for the future. I hope it would be a good one. Yea, if it is perfect then there is no difference with robot. Seriously, some rules can be break but not all. Think carefully before every rule that you intent to break.

Thanks for teaching me so much stuffs especially regarding IT. Life without you in this moment would be a little plain.

Allowing you not to feel lonely or emotional down when you are alone. Makes you feel there's someone who can accompany you in the the silent night.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
If you are my cinderella,
I will give you shoes.

I'm sorry

When I though it was a lucky day but actually it is not. I got a stack of sticky notes for free and I have a free access ticket. I have never been so lucky before.

I went to a funeral of a believer yesterday. I didn't expect it was my friend's mother. I am so shocked.. Life is really too fragile. It's been years we never met face by face other in facebook. I feel so shameful for myself as I really have no idea about the lost. Years after years, when the time we met is on funeral service and we are getting older.

Would not attending the funeral service of you death separate wife? IF you are not attending, does it mean you are cruel or loveless? I believe he has the reason of not appearing himself.

But, if we know where you will be going after you died, then death is just a process of ending your the life on earth.
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Done English presentation and left one more to go.
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She told me that she was heart broken and the wounds that she has currently because of her work. Don't know what should I do. I love her and I doesn't want her to suffer that much. I need to study hard and get excellent result to make her proud. Her trouble is part of my account. Yea, I have troubles that couldn't be solve forever.

Love your enemy

It is one of the subtopic for Tuesday's sermon. It is easy for someone to put a fake smile on the face when he or she meets with the enemy. However, what is more challenging or hard to achieve is remove all the hatreds and smile genuinely to the enemy. I know sometimes it is very hard to give way or to let go of enemy. There are many reasons why people just doesn't want to forgive. Misunderstanding, face value, doesn't wants to be at the losing end and so forth.

Let's think who do you hate the most. It might be someone whom you loved before. Your ex-best friend, ex-crush, or ex-spouse? Why do we hate someone who, we truly love before? Isn't love is unconditional? Probably he or she did something wrong or hurt you in the past. Don't ever change your love to hate but change hate to love instead. To forgive and forget but, in fact many can forgive but can't forget. At least you forgive right? Living in hatred is not good at all, should try to be happy instead. Actually from the bottom of my heart, if you care that person then only you will hate. If not you won't bother about it at all.

To love is better than to hurt.

Don't give up!

At times, you really wish that someone would always by your side and makes you feel that you are not alone in this world. That person would just keep making sure that you are fine and constantly makes you feel happy and keep laughing. Have you found one?

I have many temporary people around me who makes me feel i am not alone. They appeared at different phase of my life that allow me to feel the bliss in life. Even though there is none who can last longer yet, I am thankful for it. Everyone has their own path to walk, so don't be so demanding that people need to stay in your life forever.

Was reading a book halfway, I truly feel sad for their love story so far. Both of them doesn't know they had fallen in love with each other. So each of them married another person. Sadly, they're both their best man for each other's wedding. They just missed every single chance. That's pretty sad and argh... I hope the ending doesn't disappoint me.

Yea, not every love story have a beautiful ending. As long as both love each other deeply and accept the imperfections, love will make a broken things to be perfectly fixed without scar.

You who are reading this, hope that you have a beautiful love story. Do share with me if you don't mind (: *Good things are ought to share!*

Calm down fannen

I was so angry and fed up. The graduation's photo was so disappointed. It's like not professional one. And with simple edition they need to charge up to RM50.

While walking to the bus station, a nice car who wanted to make a turn didn't give signal. So what? You have nice car you can save your signal? It was so dangerous even I am walking but not driving.

Okay, I need to cool down.

People will always help me when I need help. I am just too pampered. I owe everyone around me. I am a blissful girl who sometimes love to complain and discontented.